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Hey Clickers!,
I recently started a new job that has taken me away from my passion for writing and my podcast. Sad, yet ya girl needs her money. I am making this post now to let you guys know that once I get into the steady pace of this, everything will be running like a fine tuned machine again.
Since this is my personal blog, I think its fair that I can talk about my life with you guys. Whether or not you judge for me for who I am is up to you.
I will say what I always say in my podcast, I am not always right, I don't know everything and I may say things that you don't agree with and that's okay. I'm not some life guru, I'm a fairly average 21 year old who likes to entertain people by talking about the nonsense that goes on in her life.
As of late, my life has been all over the place. I was in a sort of limbo. I wasn't quite drowning, but I wasn't swimming either. I was... lost. It felt like nothing was going the way I needed it to go. I felt like I was disappointing so many people who mattered to me, including myself. I couldn't seem to find what I truly wanted to do, nothing seemed right. I found that I was sleeping more often, going out less, like the opposite of those girls Drake talks about in his songs. I think I just had a year long episode of being apathetic. I had lost my stride.
So, what changed? I'm really not sure. I still have my doubts about my choices and where I'm going but, I've gotten to a point where I can't worry about that anymore. I just have to keep going until I reach my goals. Also, I talked to my friends about how I was feeling. No, it's not weak to talk about your insecurities with people that you trust. It's healthy and necessary for this society to function properly.
For those of you who are reading this right now and feel alone or like you just can't go on, talking to someone really can help alleviate some of the pain and pressure you feel.
And that's how I wound up with this new job and, quite possibly, a new (short-term and unreliable) love interest. That, is an interesting story that I don't think is quite finished yet. I give it a couple more weeks before the flame burns out and we go our separate ways. Don't get me wrong, he's a lovely person with an outstanding personality and goals but, he doesn't know what he wants. Well, let me rephrase that, he knows what he wants and it's not what I'm looking for. Even though I am "young" I don't want to waste my time. All I want is consistency. If I have to consistently be alone for awhile then, so be it. If anything exciting happens with it, I'll keep you updated.
I want to keep my job private from the internet so there is not much to talk about there, so I'll end this post here.
You'll hear from me soon guys!
-Jae
I recently started a new job that has taken me away from my passion for writing and my podcast. Sad, yet ya girl needs her money. I am making this post now to let you guys know that once I get into the steady pace of this, everything will be running like a fine tuned machine again.
Since this is my personal blog, I think its fair that I can talk about my life with you guys. Whether or not you judge for me for who I am is up to you.
I will say what I always say in my podcast, I am not always right, I don't know everything and I may say things that you don't agree with and that's okay. I'm not some life guru, I'm a fairly average 21 year old who likes to entertain people by talking about the nonsense that goes on in her life.
As of late, my life has been all over the place. I was in a sort of limbo. I wasn't quite drowning, but I wasn't swimming either. I was... lost. It felt like nothing was going the way I needed it to go. I felt like I was disappointing so many people who mattered to me, including myself. I couldn't seem to find what I truly wanted to do, nothing seemed right. I found that I was sleeping more often, going out less, like the opposite of those girls Drake talks about in his songs. I think I just had a year long episode of being apathetic. I had lost my stride.
So, what changed? I'm really not sure. I still have my doubts about my choices and where I'm going but, I've gotten to a point where I can't worry about that anymore. I just have to keep going until I reach my goals. Also, I talked to my friends about how I was feeling. No, it's not weak to talk about your insecurities with people that you trust. It's healthy and necessary for this society to function properly.
For those of you who are reading this right now and feel alone or like you just can't go on, talking to someone really can help alleviate some of the pain and pressure you feel.
And that's how I wound up with this new job and, quite possibly, a new (short-term and unreliable) love interest. That, is an interesting story that I don't think is quite finished yet. I give it a couple more weeks before the flame burns out and we go our separate ways. Don't get me wrong, he's a lovely person with an outstanding personality and goals but, he doesn't know what he wants. Well, let me rephrase that, he knows what he wants and it's not what I'm looking for. Even though I am "young" I don't want to waste my time. All I want is consistency. If I have to consistently be alone for awhile then, so be it. If anything exciting happens with it, I'll keep you updated.
I want to keep my job private from the internet so there is not much to talk about there, so I'll end this post here.
You'll hear from me soon guys!
-Jae
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